SO... Many friends and family have been asking (amongst other standard questions): WHY is this wedding so soon?! Well, from an outsider's perspective, I can definitely see how the brevity of our relationship might be some cause for concern... it today's society, it's much more acceptable to date for at LEAST a year, if not more... and then to have a long engagement. I'm sure many of you can cite a variety of reasons why there doesn't seem to be a "rush to the altar" in mainstream society, and in contrast, I'm sure many people have their opinions regarding the "Utah/Mormon dating -- engagement -- marriage" time frame (which, on average, is less than a year). Leaving opinions/speculations out of this, I will say one thing: when you know, you know. I was always one to jokingly criticize couples who were engaged within a few months of dating, stating that I would have to date a potential husband for AT LEAST a year before discussing marriage. And, well, here is proof that karma really does come back around.... hahaha :) But in all honesty and seriousness, I could never have imagined the amount of joy and happiness and peace I feel with Geoff, and I really can't explain how or why.... it just is. As I was explaining to one of my closest friends (or, as I have felt at times, defending) my reasons for getting engaged, and on top of it, getting MARRIED after such a short amount of time, she offered me this small piece of reassurance: When you say yes to a proposal and put on that ring, it doesn't matter if you're engaged for 2 months or 2 years -- you are, in essence, saying to him that you know.... you know that you are meant for each other, and that you are accepting him for all that he is (and isn't)... and that you are making a promise that you WILL be married. And I couldn't agree more ;) As for the actual date of the wedding -- well, we had initially decided on November 11 (11-11-11), but then some family news changed our plans.... my one-and-only brother (and the BEST brother of all time, I might add) decided that it was time for him to submit his papers to serve a MISSION!! Words cannot adequately describe how happy/excited/proud I am of him and this decision he has made.... I know that he has felt strong impressions from the spirit that this is his path, and I am so glad that he has accepted this calling in his life, and I cannot wait to see where it takes him (literally as well as figuratively). He is going to be an amazing missionary, and I know that the people in the community where he will serve will be truly blessed to have him. I will undoubtedly miss him.... my only sibling, leaving for 2 long years. But I know he will bring joy and happiness to a great deal of people, so I think it's only fair to share him with them :) SO... with that news, and his decision to leave at the end of September, we decided to move the date up (WAY up) so that he could be a part of this special time in my life. And since that decision, I must say, we have been truly fortunate (the Lord must be watching over us....). I was slightly concerned with the availability of venues/vendors, as there are an incredibly high number of weddings in Utah (especially in the months of June-September), but with our network of friends (and a few answered prayers), we seem to be moving forward relatively quickly in this planning process. I haven't had much chance to stop and sit back and really process the entirety of the situation and planning a wedding in 2.5 months, so I'm sure I'll be able to better comment after the madness has died down :)
Another question that we have had to address is a bit more personal, but I feel that it is important to share it here. As Geoff and I are both LDS, the assumption/expectation from many friends and family is that we are going to be married in the temple. While we both want to have this experience and make that commitment to each other and to the Lord, we do not feel that we are ready. The temple itself is a very sacred and holy place, and it is reserved for those who are worthy and prepared to pass through those doors -- unfortunately, there are many couples out there who would rather spare the sense of disappointment and grief they could potentially suffer from family/friends, and they choose to have a temple marriage... regardless of whether they are ready, worthy, or even want that for themselves. Geoff and I have talked about this at length, and while we want a temple marriage, we are not ready. And rather than rush through the preparation process, we want to take the time to appropriately and adequately study and learn so that we may feel that earnest desire to complete our eternal marriage. Maybe it's because I'm a lifetime student, but I need to take more time... this may be something I have thought about for years, but I want to know and understand more before entering into this covenant. I respect and honor the temple for what it stands for, and for the internal purity and sacredness it protects, and I will not let potential (and now actual) trial and heartache lead me to dishonor that which it represents. SO.... with all that said, Geoff and I have decided to have a small traditional ring ceremony with a small reception for close family and friends on Friday, September 9, and on Saturday we will host an "Open House" at a local park for extended family and friends to come join us as we celebrate the beginning of our marriage and the life we are committing to share with each other. As I have mentioned earlier, we both have the sincere desire to be married/sealed in the temple "for time and all eternity" -- and we have made a promise, to each other and to the Lord, that we will attend the Los Angeles Temple to be sealed a year after our wedding. We both look forward to that date, and know that it will bring infinite (and eternal) blessings to our lives, the lives of our families, and to the lives of our future children. What a glorious day that will be, on the grassy lawn overlooking Santa Monica Boulevard........ :)
While I don't know who exactly may be reading this blog (now that my fiance has shared this link with his 2000+ friends on Facebook), but the testimony I have of the spirit and this gospel is strong and I wanted to share a little part of it with you. I am so grateful for the unconditional love and support of family and friends during this overwhelmingly emotional time in my life, and pray that I can stay level-headed enough to get all these wedding details taken care of!! Thank goodness I only have to do this once...... :) Love you all, thanks for taking the time to read! I'll be back soon with more wedding updates...... exactly 8 weeks left until I'm officially "Mrs. Dyer".....!!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Announcing: the *future* Mrs. Laura Ellice Dyer!
It's Sunday morning, and I'm sitting here staring at this new addition to my left hand:
Yes, the rumors are true -- I'M ENGAGED! It came a lot sooner than I had ever anticipated, but then again, does anything in my life ever go according to "plan"? hahaha. So in some sense, it's no surprise that I would find my fiance when I wasn't looking for him... and on top of it all, that we both just knew - without a doubt - that we would be perfect for each other. It's refreshing, actually... neither of us believe in a "soul mate" -- we just have complete respect, trust, and love for each other and we have made it obvious that our priorities are in this relationship and making it work. We both put each other's well-being above our own, and this has contribute to a successful relationship thus far, and I have full confidence that it will continue. Many people may worry that we are in the "honeymoon phase" of our relationship (because we've only been dating about 3 months) but we are both mature (in regards to our relationship history) -- he is 32 and I am now 27, as of last week -- and we have had our fair share of dating experiences to compare to, and we just recognize that this is just "different." There is something about him and about us that I can't quite put my finger on..... and most importantly, I can't deny the confirmation from the spirit that this is right. That we are (more-or-less) "perfect" for each other. Even if we both jokingly criticized the typical "Utah engagement" -- date for a month, engaged, married 3 months later -- we can't argue with what we both know is the right choice for us. Can we say KARMA?! hahahaha. But in the end, we have no reservations about moving forward in this, and we could not be happier! So, without further adieu, here is the full narrative of the proposal (because I'm sure many of you are more interested in this than me gushing over my future husband):
Last weekend, Geoff and I traveled down to Moab with a group of friends to join in the "Massive Moab Trip" festivities. This is an annual trip for many single adults in the Salt Lake/Provo area, to play and have fun -- and of course, meet new people. Roughly 450 people attended this year's event, and it truly lived up to it's name. I had never been to Moab before, although I've wanted to go for years now, so I was excited to finally experience the wonders of this small southeastern Utah town. Geoff is huge into outdoor activities (if the professional snowmobiling didn't already give that away) so he loves to coordinate things like this (just one of the many reasons why I love him). He rented a camper for the weekend so that our group of 9 would have a place to sleep, and we were definitely the envy of the campground and the mini "tent village" that had developed. We arrived on Thursday night, exhausted yet ready for the itinerary of activities that we had planned for us. Friday was devoted mostly to a Jeeping excursion across Slick Rock, and that was an entirely new adventure for me -- but one that I will gladly do again! Here are a few photos from that outing:
Friday night, a few of us went out on our RZR that we rented (it's a combination of ATV + Jeep) to capture this sunset:
Saturday was full of more Jeeping adventures, but our little group went off on our own to explore a different area of Moab... this is what we found:
After spending the day roaming the wilderness, we made our way back to civilization to meet up with the rest of the MMT group for a picnic in the park. I was told that we would be hiking to 'Delicate Arch' for sunset -- for those who don't know, this is probably the most recognizable arch in the state of Utah (it's on a majority of the state's license plates). Geoff made it sound like somewhat of an "urgent" matter, that we needed to get going so that we could make it for sunset. Little did I know, the "urgency" in his voice was more directly related to his anxiety surrounding a certain question he was going to ask during that sunset... but let's not get ahead of ourselves :) We gathered the troops and made our way back to camp, changing and preparing for the final activity of our event-filled weekend. Our group of 9 arrived at the trailhead around 7:45, and we started the 1.5-mile hike to the arch... everything was business as usual from my perspective, the whispering and giggling and quiet chatter from the girls ahead of Geoff and I was nothing out of the ordinary. We were just around the corner from the arch, and Geoff told us all that we were going up to his little "window" to get a group shot away from the masses of tourists that accumulate around the arch itself. So here we are, sitting while Geoff sets up his camera (he's kinda serious about photography, so he has a tripod for his massive Canon camera.. er, well, I guess this was more of a rental because he sold his camera a couple weeks ago to pay for hardware he has now "leased" to me....)
...and I'm wondering why we aren't closer to the actual arch. I mean, we made the hike all the way up, we might as well finish it right? But there we were, sitting and waiting to take this group photo:
And then it was our turn... the group jumped out of the frame so that Geoff and I could take our "photo" -- I found it slightly odd that they were standing in a line next to the camera while Geoff adjusted the settings, but I didn't really think much about it. Geoff came back to stand next to me so we could pose for our "photo" . . . he kissed my forehead, and I turned to look at him, only to see him dropping to one knee. WHOA. I knew it was going to happen, at some point in the (near) future, but it was actually happening! I think he said something along the lines of "Will you marry me?" but I'm not going to lie, I wasn't focused on the words coming out of his mouth, I was staring at the little box in his hands while trying to remember that I needed to actually give him an answer :) Thankfully we had a little audience taking photos, and Geoff was also (secretly) videotaping the moment so we could re-live it (and laugh at the random lady who decided to walk into the frame and take a photo of the arch without realizing what was happening a few feet from her)... pictures are worth a thousand words, so I'll let them speak for themselves:
Later I found out that Geoff was less-than-pleased with how things panned out... the sunset wasn't perfect for photos, the lighting was less-than ideal, the ring didn't fit on my finger (due to the swelling after our hike up to the spot)... but from my perspective, I wouldn't have had it any other way. There is a beauty in imperfection, and it's special -- and it makes for better stories :) So, there you have it folks. We are now engaged and couldn't be happier! And with all that said, I'll leave you for now... busy times ahead, especially as we are now looking at a possible September wedding... stay tuned for further details........... <3
Yes, the rumors are true -- I'M ENGAGED! It came a lot sooner than I had ever anticipated, but then again, does anything in my life ever go according to "plan"? hahaha. So in some sense, it's no surprise that I would find my fiance when I wasn't looking for him... and on top of it all, that we both just knew - without a doubt - that we would be perfect for each other. It's refreshing, actually... neither of us believe in a "soul mate" -- we just have complete respect, trust, and love for each other and we have made it obvious that our priorities are in this relationship and making it work. We both put each other's well-being above our own, and this has contribute to a successful relationship thus far, and I have full confidence that it will continue. Many people may worry that we are in the "honeymoon phase" of our relationship (because we've only been dating about 3 months) but we are both mature (in regards to our relationship history) -- he is 32 and I am now 27, as of last week -- and we have had our fair share of dating experiences to compare to, and we just recognize that this is just "different." There is something about him and about us that I can't quite put my finger on..... and most importantly, I can't deny the confirmation from the spirit that this is right. That we are (more-or-less) "perfect" for each other. Even if we both jokingly criticized the typical "Utah engagement" -- date for a month, engaged, married 3 months later -- we can't argue with what we both know is the right choice for us. Can we say KARMA?! hahahaha. But in the end, we have no reservations about moving forward in this, and we could not be happier! So, without further adieu, here is the full narrative of the proposal (because I'm sure many of you are more interested in this than me gushing over my future husband):
Last weekend, Geoff and I traveled down to Moab with a group of friends to join in the "Massive Moab Trip" festivities. This is an annual trip for many single adults in the Salt Lake/Provo area, to play and have fun -- and of course, meet new people. Roughly 450 people attended this year's event, and it truly lived up to it's name. I had never been to Moab before, although I've wanted to go for years now, so I was excited to finally experience the wonders of this small southeastern Utah town. Geoff is huge into outdoor activities (if the professional snowmobiling didn't already give that away) so he loves to coordinate things like this (just one of the many reasons why I love him). He rented a camper for the weekend so that our group of 9 would have a place to sleep, and we were definitely the envy of the campground and the mini "tent village" that had developed. We arrived on Thursday night, exhausted yet ready for the itinerary of activities that we had planned for us. Friday was devoted mostly to a Jeeping excursion across Slick Rock, and that was an entirely new adventure for me -- but one that I will gladly do again! Here are a few photos from that outing:
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| Don't worry, he's a professional -- he set this up for a photo op! |
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| (Note: however big your Hummer/ego may be, IT IS NOT MEANT FOR THIS.) |
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| <3 |
Friday night, a few of us went out on our RZR that we rented (it's a combination of ATV + Jeep) to capture this sunset:
Saturday was full of more Jeeping adventures, but our little group went off on our own to explore a different area of Moab... this is what we found:
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| Gemini Bridges |
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| Geoff likes to stand on ledges... yes, that's him out there in the distance... |
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| (yes, that's me waaaay down there under that ginormous rock) |
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| Gemini Bridges (Geoff and I looking up from below) |
...and I'm wondering why we aren't closer to the actual arch. I mean, we made the hike all the way up, we might as well finish it right? But there we were, sitting and waiting to take this group photo:
And then it was our turn... the group jumped out of the frame so that Geoff and I could take our "photo" -- I found it slightly odd that they were standing in a line next to the camera while Geoff adjusted the settings, but I didn't really think much about it. Geoff came back to stand next to me so we could pose for our "photo" . . . he kissed my forehead, and I turned to look at him, only to see him dropping to one knee. WHOA. I knew it was going to happen, at some point in the (near) future, but it was actually happening! I think he said something along the lines of "Will you marry me?" but I'm not going to lie, I wasn't focused on the words coming out of his mouth, I was staring at the little box in his hands while trying to remember that I needed to actually give him an answer :) Thankfully we had a little audience taking photos, and Geoff was also (secretly) videotaping the moment so we could re-live it (and laugh at the random lady who decided to walk into the frame and take a photo of the arch without realizing what was happening a few feet from her)... pictures are worth a thousand words, so I'll let them speak for themselves:
Monday, May 16, 2011
Just when I thought I had it all figured out...
...the Lord has to tap me on the shoulder and remind me that I'll never have it "all figured out" -- that's the point of this life, to continuously "figure it out". Everyday, we are presented with choices that will determine the direction of our lives, and with each decision we make we have new lessons to learn to help us as we continue on our way. Wouldn't it be so much easier to have all the answers? To know what we needed to do when -- but most importantly, WHY? Seems fair enough... But if that were the case, what kind of "test" would this life be? Don't get me wrong, I'm all for easy tests, but... I don't think this is one of them :) I have come to appreciate the great blessing that faith is in my life, and I am incredibly grateful for the testimony I have of the strength and sense of peace that it brings to my life.
I do have a slightly major update to share: I have been dating a new guy for a little over a month now, and as surprising as it may seem to most (including me) we are incredibly happy as a couple, and I would venture to say that things could get pretty serious between us (if they haven't already)... He is an incredible catch, and I feel so fortunate and blessed to have him in my life. That whole concept of "faith" really has played a major role in my life, and this new development is no exception. We met each other about 2 months ago through mutual friends, and we hit it off -- as friends. I enjoyed spending time with him, but it never crossed my mind that he was at all interested in me... I genuinely thought that he was just one of those guys who knew how to befriend girls. So when he asked me to join him to a Bees game (minor league baseball), I didn't think anything of it -- I just thought that we would go as friends to have an enjoyable evening. Was I naive? Maybe... I do live in Utah after all, so I should have known that most guys don't just ask girls out for the fun of it. But... I think that because I wasn't under the impression that we were on a "first date", I allowed myself to really be ME and and relax and just have fun. And it was the most fun I've ever had on a date :) Since that night, we have been spending a majority of our free time together, really getting to know each other and gauging where this relationship might lead us. Regardless of where we end up, I know that we are incredibly happy and optimistic about our future, and we both feel grateful and blessed to have found each other. But let's not get ahead of ourselves... we are still "dating" and enjoying every minute of it! Here are a few photos from some of our recent outings:
I do have a slightly major update to share: I have been dating a new guy for a little over a month now, and as surprising as it may seem to most (including me) we are incredibly happy as a couple, and I would venture to say that things could get pretty serious between us (if they haven't already)... He is an incredible catch, and I feel so fortunate and blessed to have him in my life. That whole concept of "faith" really has played a major role in my life, and this new development is no exception. We met each other about 2 months ago through mutual friends, and we hit it off -- as friends. I enjoyed spending time with him, but it never crossed my mind that he was at all interested in me... I genuinely thought that he was just one of those guys who knew how to befriend girls. So when he asked me to join him to a Bees game (minor league baseball), I didn't think anything of it -- I just thought that we would go as friends to have an enjoyable evening. Was I naive? Maybe... I do live in Utah after all, so I should have known that most guys don't just ask girls out for the fun of it. But... I think that because I wasn't under the impression that we were on a "first date", I allowed myself to really be ME and and relax and just have fun. And it was the most fun I've ever had on a date :) Since that night, we have been spending a majority of our free time together, really getting to know each other and gauging where this relationship might lead us. Regardless of where we end up, I know that we are incredibly happy and optimistic about our future, and we both feel grateful and blessed to have found each other. But let's not get ahead of ourselves... we are still "dating" and enjoying every minute of it! Here are a few photos from some of our recent outings:
And with that, I'll leave you for now... Geoff is on his way over, and I need to get ready :) I'll be sending more updates soon...!!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
April showers bring May flowers... Can't it be MAY already?
As the month of April drew closer, I made the prediction that there would be 2 more sizable snowstorms to hit our lovely little valley before the winter season finally bid us adieu... well folks, it's April 10, and we just saw our second storm blow through, obliterating any possible chance of my daffodils surviving to see spring. Well, I do have about 35 bulbs that have yet to bloom... but the 15 that decided to show their bright little faces were forced to endure sub-freezing temps and about a foot of snow....
....and that was just the first storm. We still have 20 days left in the month, and I am just dreaming about the days when I can walk out my door and feel the sunshine on my face -- and not the freezing sleet that we have been subjected to these past few days. WILL IT EVER END?! Okay, that may seem a bit dramatic... I know warm weather is right around the corner, I'm just getting a bit impatient. It is a bit scary to think that it's already APRIL... that means I graduated from Hopkins 9 months ago, started work 6 months ago, and in just 2 months, I will be the ripe ol' age of 27!?! Oiy. Vey. Goes without saying... but time sure has been flying as of late! Partly due to the fact that I've been so incredibly busy... but I'm not complaining :)
Work at the Utah Neurological Clinic (and my specific "department" of the Spine Center) has been a challenge, but mostly because I have been stretched outside my original "job description" of Nurse Care Coordinator to encompass "Web Designer" and "Marketing Director" -- no joke! Haha. But I will say, this challenge has been fun, and I'm quite proud of how things have turned out so far. Check out the final product of my website:
I would say it is my first website, but I'd be lying... way back in the early days of personal webpages (circa 1998) I was quite fond of the adventure on the "new frontier" of the internet, if you will... and I had my very own page entitled "Laura's Junk" -- catchy title, I know. I don't exactly remember the purpose of that webpage, but I was proud of myself for deciphering the language of HTML and truly "creating" a webpage. I think it lasted a year or so... then Napster hit the internet and my attention was quickly diverted (I still have songs on my iPod that I had originally downloaded from Napster, back when they hadn't quite figured out how it would impact the entertainment industry.....) Amazing how far we have come since those early days.
Aside from the creative aspect of my job, I have really established myself at the clinic, and I feel as though I have gained a sense of respect from those I work with -- and it has really given me the confidence to assert my suggestions and opinions as it impacts the process of new patient referrals (that I am more-or-less managing at this point). It's been a long journey, but I feel comfortable in my position now, and I look forward to the future of the clinic and how I can help shape the way that patients can receive treatment from the surgeons/practitioners in our clinic. There is so much potential, and I am so excited (and blessed) to be a part of it.
Working in Provo does have some disadvantages... mostly relating to the inevitably LONG days I have during the week, preventing me from really enjoying any activities that may be scheduled Monday-Friday. I'm so exhausted after my commute home (which range from 45-60mins) that I usually run a few errands and then crash at home, falling asleep by 9-930. There's nothing wrong with that, of course... but I have been making an effort to hang with friends (yes, some of which are boys) and I've realized that I'm really quite content with where my life is at right now. Not saying that I wouldn't be happy in a relationship of some sort... but I know that will happen when the Lord decides that the time is right. He hasn't let me down yet, so I have a strong feeling that this won't be any different :)
Well, I wanted to get a few thoughts out to you all, but it's getting late here in the SLC and I need to be rested for the week ahead (even though I did sleep about 24 hours this weekend!) -- so I will leave you for now, but I intend to elaborate on a few things when I have more time... I promise it will be soon :) Take care all!
....and that was just the first storm. We still have 20 days left in the month, and I am just dreaming about the days when I can walk out my door and feel the sunshine on my face -- and not the freezing sleet that we have been subjected to these past few days. WILL IT EVER END?! Okay, that may seem a bit dramatic... I know warm weather is right around the corner, I'm just getting a bit impatient. It is a bit scary to think that it's already APRIL... that means I graduated from Hopkins 9 months ago, started work 6 months ago, and in just 2 months, I will be the ripe ol' age of 27!?! Oiy. Vey. Goes without saying... but time sure has been flying as of late! Partly due to the fact that I've been so incredibly busy... but I'm not complaining :)
Work at the Utah Neurological Clinic (and my specific "department" of the Spine Center) has been a challenge, but mostly because I have been stretched outside my original "job description" of Nurse Care Coordinator to encompass "Web Designer" and "Marketing Director" -- no joke! Haha. But I will say, this challenge has been fun, and I'm quite proud of how things have turned out so far. Check out the final product of my website:
I would say it is my first website, but I'd be lying... way back in the early days of personal webpages (circa 1998) I was quite fond of the adventure on the "new frontier" of the internet, if you will... and I had my very own page entitled "Laura's Junk" -- catchy title, I know. I don't exactly remember the purpose of that webpage, but I was proud of myself for deciphering the language of HTML and truly "creating" a webpage. I think it lasted a year or so... then Napster hit the internet and my attention was quickly diverted (I still have songs on my iPod that I had originally downloaded from Napster, back when they hadn't quite figured out how it would impact the entertainment industry.....) Amazing how far we have come since those early days.
Aside from the creative aspect of my job, I have really established myself at the clinic, and I feel as though I have gained a sense of respect from those I work with -- and it has really given me the confidence to assert my suggestions and opinions as it impacts the process of new patient referrals (that I am more-or-less managing at this point). It's been a long journey, but I feel comfortable in my position now, and I look forward to the future of the clinic and how I can help shape the way that patients can receive treatment from the surgeons/practitioners in our clinic. There is so much potential, and I am so excited (and blessed) to be a part of it.
Working in Provo does have some disadvantages... mostly relating to the inevitably LONG days I have during the week, preventing me from really enjoying any activities that may be scheduled Monday-Friday. I'm so exhausted after my commute home (which range from 45-60mins) that I usually run a few errands and then crash at home, falling asleep by 9-930. There's nothing wrong with that, of course... but I have been making an effort to hang with friends (yes, some of which are boys) and I've realized that I'm really quite content with where my life is at right now. Not saying that I wouldn't be happy in a relationship of some sort... but I know that will happen when the Lord decides that the time is right. He hasn't let me down yet, so I have a strong feeling that this won't be any different :)
Well, I wanted to get a few thoughts out to you all, but it's getting late here in the SLC and I need to be rested for the week ahead (even though I did sleep about 24 hours this weekend!) -- so I will leave you for now, but I intend to elaborate on a few things when I have more time... I promise it will be soon :) Take care all!
Monday, March 7, 2011
aaaand... I'm back.
Sort-of.
For the 5 people out there who probably read this (or maybe it's just you, mom) I apologize for disappearing for over a month... first it was work (which is still 45-50 hours per week) and then I broke up with my boyfriend... so unfortunately I haven't had the energy (or desire) to take the time to comment on my life. But things have settled down (eh, somewhat... maybe...) so I thought I'd share a few thoughts with you. But don't worry! I'm not a depressed, mopey, "poor me" kinda girl -- it is what it is, and I'm grateful for the experience I had... I know that everything happens for a reason, and I have faith that the Lord has some sort of idea of what He wants for me, even if at times the light at the end of the tunnel seems to move farther and farther away from me.... And in all honesty, I hold no negative feelings towards the guy.. as much as heartbreak hurts, it's part of life. And I'm glad we were able to figure this out now then down the road... but in the end, it's really not up to us -- it's up to the Lord. And I hope that I find a guy who believes that as strongly as I do. :)
As for work... it's fantastic, I really couldn't be happier. Aside from my amazing group of friends up here in Salt Lake, I think that has really been a huge support/distraction from the other stressors in my life. There is so much development and change in the way things are run in the clinic and I am a critical factor in the changes that are being made (with regards to the "Spine Center" concept) -- both in the actual decision-making process as well as taking on the responsibilities to address issues that arise. I'm so excited to see where this will go, and I already see how my efforts and hard work are paying off. It's hard to fully describe in words what my role is at the clinic, but the plan is for me to be the "Gate Keeper" of sorts -- all new patient referrals will go through me, and I will discuss the cases with the surgeons so they can decide on a treatment plan for the patient. This may sound simple and straight-forward, but the process requires a lot of coordination... and as in any relationship, the only part I can have any control over is the choices I make and the actions I take -- so I have to rely on each party involved, which can be stressful because, of course, everyone is free to make their own decisions, and on their own schedule (which rarely coincides with mine). SO... it's been quite the learning/growing process for me, but I've really become confident in my role and the responsibility I have been given, so I've become much more assertive and comfortable with my voice and the opinions I have. And I can't tell you how great that feels :)
In case you're curious, here is a general overview of our "Spine Center" algorithm:
1. New Patient referral received
2. Patient contacted for initial intake
3. Patient mails/drops off printed MRI films
4. Patient put in queue for review by the surgeon
5. Surgeon reviews patients' referral notes/reports/films and gives recommendations
6. Patient is contacted to relay recommendations
7. Appointment is scheduled with appropriate provider in the clinic, or patient is referred to appropriate specialty
At each step, there are many potential issues that we are confronted with... and so unfortunately, it rarely goes as smoothly as we would hope. But in addition to managing this system, we are also running reports for all established patients in the clinic and testing that is ordered (although thankfully this job will be moved to my administrative assistant's list of responsibilities as soon as she is hired -- yes, I will have an "assistant"). I'm also sending multiple letters daily to patients and referring physicians to update them on the current status of each new patient's referral. After reviews is our busiest time -- I have to enter all the recommendations for each patient into the computer system, and then Annette and I make phone calls/write letters to each patient/physician to update them on the outcome of the review. Two of our surgeons are caught up with their reviews... unfortunately, the third has been quite busy with clinic and his on-call week emergency surgeries, so we haven't had a review in over a month... and now he has 73 patients waiting for review -- which he will be going through tomorrow. SO, needless to say, the rest of my week is looking pretty busy.... but I much prefer it that way :) I just feel so blessed to be in this position -- to be respected and trusted by those I work with, and to be a part of something that promises such potential for growth and development in my future. I never thought I would see myself working in an office, but I realize that this is the perfect fit for me and my personality. Who knows, maybe I'll change my mind in the future... but for now, I really couldn't ask for anything more. Funny how I think I know what's best for me, and then He shows me (again and again) that He knows me better than I know myself.... :)
Even though I feel as though I live at my office or in my car, I have been able to get out and have a little bit of fun here and there -- I took a weekend trip to New York with some close friends from my ward a couple weeks ago, and we had the time of our lives. Such an enjoyable trip, and besides, y'all know how much I love NYC.... :) I have a few more adventures in the works for the upcoming months, including a potential summer cruise with some close girlfriends... just a few benefits of being single :) But it's getting late -- yes, I've turned into a grandma of sorts -- so I'm going to wrap this up, and I'll be in touch with a new update soon enough! Much love everyone!
For the 5 people out there who probably read this (or maybe it's just you, mom) I apologize for disappearing for over a month... first it was work (which is still 45-50 hours per week) and then I broke up with my boyfriend... so unfortunately I haven't had the energy (or desire) to take the time to comment on my life. But things have settled down (eh, somewhat... maybe...) so I thought I'd share a few thoughts with you. But don't worry! I'm not a depressed, mopey, "poor me" kinda girl -- it is what it is, and I'm grateful for the experience I had... I know that everything happens for a reason, and I have faith that the Lord has some sort of idea of what He wants for me, even if at times the light at the end of the tunnel seems to move farther and farther away from me.... And in all honesty, I hold no negative feelings towards the guy.. as much as heartbreak hurts, it's part of life. And I'm glad we were able to figure this out now then down the road... but in the end, it's really not up to us -- it's up to the Lord. And I hope that I find a guy who believes that as strongly as I do. :)
As for work... it's fantastic, I really couldn't be happier. Aside from my amazing group of friends up here in Salt Lake, I think that has really been a huge support/distraction from the other stressors in my life. There is so much development and change in the way things are run in the clinic and I am a critical factor in the changes that are being made (with regards to the "Spine Center" concept) -- both in the actual decision-making process as well as taking on the responsibilities to address issues that arise. I'm so excited to see where this will go, and I already see how my efforts and hard work are paying off. It's hard to fully describe in words what my role is at the clinic, but the plan is for me to be the "Gate Keeper" of sorts -- all new patient referrals will go through me, and I will discuss the cases with the surgeons so they can decide on a treatment plan for the patient. This may sound simple and straight-forward, but the process requires a lot of coordination... and as in any relationship, the only part I can have any control over is the choices I make and the actions I take -- so I have to rely on each party involved, which can be stressful because, of course, everyone is free to make their own decisions, and on their own schedule (which rarely coincides with mine). SO... it's been quite the learning/growing process for me, but I've really become confident in my role and the responsibility I have been given, so I've become much more assertive and comfortable with my voice and the opinions I have. And I can't tell you how great that feels :)
In case you're curious, here is a general overview of our "Spine Center" algorithm:
1. New Patient referral received
2. Patient contacted for initial intake
3. Patient mails/drops off printed MRI films
4. Patient put in queue for review by the surgeon
5. Surgeon reviews patients' referral notes/reports/films and gives recommendations
6. Patient is contacted to relay recommendations
7. Appointment is scheduled with appropriate provider in the clinic, or patient is referred to appropriate specialty
At each step, there are many potential issues that we are confronted with... and so unfortunately, it rarely goes as smoothly as we would hope. But in addition to managing this system, we are also running reports for all established patients in the clinic and testing that is ordered (although thankfully this job will be moved to my administrative assistant's list of responsibilities as soon as she is hired -- yes, I will have an "assistant"). I'm also sending multiple letters daily to patients and referring physicians to update them on the current status of each new patient's referral. After reviews is our busiest time -- I have to enter all the recommendations for each patient into the computer system, and then Annette and I make phone calls/write letters to each patient/physician to update them on the outcome of the review. Two of our surgeons are caught up with their reviews... unfortunately, the third has been quite busy with clinic and his on-call week emergency surgeries, so we haven't had a review in over a month... and now he has 73 patients waiting for review -- which he will be going through tomorrow. SO, needless to say, the rest of my week is looking pretty busy.... but I much prefer it that way :) I just feel so blessed to be in this position -- to be respected and trusted by those I work with, and to be a part of something that promises such potential for growth and development in my future. I never thought I would see myself working in an office, but I realize that this is the perfect fit for me and my personality. Who knows, maybe I'll change my mind in the future... but for now, I really couldn't ask for anything more. Funny how I think I know what's best for me, and then He shows me (again and again) that He knows me better than I know myself.... :)
Even though I feel as though I live at my office or in my car, I have been able to get out and have a little bit of fun here and there -- I took a weekend trip to New York with some close friends from my ward a couple weeks ago, and we had the time of our lives. Such an enjoyable trip, and besides, y'all know how much I love NYC.... :) I have a few more adventures in the works for the upcoming months, including a potential summer cruise with some close girlfriends... just a few benefits of being single :) But it's getting late -- yes, I've turned into a grandma of sorts -- so I'm going to wrap this up, and I'll be in touch with a new update soon enough! Much love everyone!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
2K-eleven.
With the New Year comes resolution.... however you want to look at it, RESOLUTION = CHANGE. Why does the word "change" carry a negative connotation in the minds of so many people? I appreciate the opportunity to reflect on my life and find areas where I can improve... but I've also come to accept that there will be moments in my life when I realize that change is necessary -- even if I don't understand why. And for some reason, I've had a lot of those moments... and they usually involve a very big decision that will affect the direction my life is heading. Stressful as they might appear, I'm grateful for the spirit that brings comfort and reassurance that I'm making the right choices. Especially right now. After spending months building and strengthening my application for graduate school so that I could potentially start this fall at the U, I finally realized (and admitted to myself) that my priorities have changed. The application deadline was January 18... and it wasn't until just a few days before that date that I made the final decision -- my immediate future does not include devoting my life to working on a doctoral degree in nursing. Maybe a few years down the road... who knows. But I realized that I was committing to a decision that I had made when I was at a different place in my life -- 6 months ago I was unemployed, unattached, and without any clear direction. As I understood it, my calling in life was to attend to the needs of pregnant and laboring women... logically it made sense to continue on in school and become a midwife/women's health nurse practitioner because school is all that I've really known. It's a "safe zone" for me. I love being in school and having an opportunity to learn and grow in that environment. But these past few weeks, I took a step back to make sure that applying to grad school really is the right thing for me and my life, considering how different it is now than it was 6 months ago. And as difficult as it was for me to accept, I'm happy with where I'm at and I don't need (or want) anything more right now. I may not be working in the nursing environment that I initially envisioned, but it really is a perfect fit for me. I love having a Monday-Friday/8-6 work schedule and going to work with an understanding of what to expect. I have a clear list of things I need to accomplish everyday, and that is a perfect fit for my personality. Working for neurosurgeons in this spine center might not be my "calling" -- but that's the beauty of nursing. There will always be a need, and I don't have to commit to this position for the rest of my life. But for right now, I love it. It's a great fit for me. But most importantly, I have earned respect from those I work with and they trust my judgment. If I had gone into a hospital environment, I would have been a lowly "new grad" that wouldn't have been trusted with anything, not for a while at least... how does that make any new nurse feel confident in their knowledge and skills? So for that reason alone I am grateful for this first job as a RN. And it also gives me one reason why grad school may not be the best option for me right now. I feel incredibly lucky to be blessed with a job that I enjoy, and I don't want to give that up just yet. Not to mention the fact that having an income will help me to pay off the debt I incurred from my last educational venture.... haha. One year at Hopkins really did me in. But it was worth every penny :) Yes, there are other reasons why I decided against grad school, but when it came right down to it, I realized that my heart wasn't there. I couldn't argue with that. I'm not ruling anything out -- my life could take another turn in the future to direct me back towards becoming a midwife, but for now, I'm content with having 3 bachelor's degrees and one set of credentials after my name. There is nothing wrong with being "just a nurse" -- I'm happy with it, and that's what truly matters, right? I can fulfill my calling as a nurse in the Labor & Delivery room, and that's what I intend to do. But hey, I'm only 26 -- there's no need to rush to create a perfect life for myself RIGHT NOW. I need something to look forward to :) And one more thing... as startling as it may seem to some, I have also finally realized that I don't want my career to affect the type of mother I want to be -- don't worry, I'm not giving up the career I've worked so hard for, but I guess I finally understand the importance one of the primary "callings" I have been given here on this earth... and it is a calling that only I can fulfill. But I need to make sure that I put appropriate effort into both my callings - being a mother and being a nurse - and I need to consider that before I sign up for the responsibility that being a midwife will undoubtedly require. I guess that is reason enough to take some more time before grad school, right? I'm sure you didn't care to read about all these details behind my decision, but I needed to. For myself. It's somewhat therapeutic, if you will :) SO, with all that said, I hope you understand this isn't a decision I took lightly, and I feel in some ways that the decision was already made for me. But with each change comes a new beginning... and I love the feeling of a fresh start :)
Friday, December 24, 2010
'Twas the Night Before Christmas...
...And all through the house, not a creature was stirring, not even a mou-- HA. I wish! I've learned that Charlie enjoys midnight romps through my room... and he loves to wake me up in the process. I love the little guy though, and I'm going to miss him greatly when he relocates to sunny Malibu next week... yes, Charlie is moving back "home" to California to live with my mom until my schedule settles down a bit. Work has been especially busy lately, as we wrap up the end of this year and prepare to "open" the Spine Center on January 3... I've been working 10-hr days at the clinic, and with my commute to Provo, I've been gone from 7 am to 7 pm Monday through Friday and poor Charlie is left cooped up in my room waiting ever-so-patiently for me to return. He is the sweetest dog, and the best sidekick/friend I could have asked for... back when I was unemployed and single. With all the recent changes in my life, though, my ability to care for him the way I would like to (and the way I know he deserves) has been greatly limited, and I realize that in order to do what is best for him I need to let him be somewhere he can have that attention that he needs. It's been a really tough decision for me -- I feel somewhat irresponsible for bringing him into my life only to semi-abandon him just a few short months later. But in my discussions with my mom and Jamison (my bf, in case you aren't aware), they have put my mind at ease -- I made this decision to adopt him when I had the time/energy to commit to his needs, but life changes ever-so quickly (and I am definitely familiar with that fact) and I never could have foreseen where I would be today. Regardless of the current situation, I was able to rescue him from the shelter, and he will stay in a loving home that I know and trust -- which will also give me opportunity to visit him whenever I'm back in California. I am just so grateful that my mom is willing to welcome little Charlie into her home -- I couldn't ask for a better surrogate "family" to care for him :) And as much as Charlie loves the snow up here in Utah, I'm sure he will be happy to return to the warm California sunshine (whenever it decides to show its lovely face again)!
So. Now on to more updates: WORK. I've been at the Spine Center for 2 months now, and I'm LOVING it! Surprised? I am. After all my education and experience, and considering that I found my "niche" in Labor & Delivery, I did not expect to find a place for myself in Neurosurgery, working in an office M-F, 8-6. But the job description matches my personality quite perfectly, and I feel that I have been able to contribute a great deal to the development of the Spine Center concept. Currently, my main priority is to compile data and reports for the end of the month so that we can see where we need to focus our attention in January. I've done quite a bit of patient triage and screening (my eventual central role at the clinic) in order to decrease the backlog of patients for the surgeons, but in order to get our system up-and-running come January, I've had to do a lot of data entry. It's tedious work, but thankfully I have a great support system at the clinic and I love going to work each day. I'll be grateful when all this prep work is completed, but we still have 3 more days at the clinic until the end of the month (and YEAR) so I just need to keep pushing forward. I do see a light at the end of the tunnel, though... and that is what is keeping me motivated. I am confident that my efforts will greatly improve the clinic's current practice, and I feel grateful to be a part of this new system!
HOLIDAYS. Hard to believe that they are almost over... I always say that, but for some reason I've been more aware of it this year. It feels like yesterday that I was celebrating Thanksgiving, and now here we are, getting the house ready for Santa to arrive... I love this time of year. Especially in the shadows of the snow-capped Utah mountains, and especially with family and friends. Last weekend I had the opportunity to travel to Idaho Falls with Jamison to meet his family (he is the youngest of 8 children) during their Christmas festivities. I was slightly anxious about the whole situation (not sure how a Californian would fit in to an Idahoan family, especially because each of his siblings is married with children) but they welcomed me without any second thoughts and all my worries quickly disappeared. I had such an enjoyable time -- brought me back to my childhood years and our epic Newman Reunions -- being one of 36 first-cousins was overwhelming, but I absolutely loved it. So celebrating with his family was a pleasant surprise, and I couldn't have asked for anything more. Is it too much to say that I love his family? Shoot. I do. They are amazing, and I thank them for such a great "first" IF/Manwaring experience! I know what some of you Utahns may be thinking -- but NO, we are not engaged, and I don't see that happening any time soon. Yes, we've been dating 3 months now, but we are perfectly content with our relationship and we don't feel the need to rush into any major decisions right now! We are taking a road trip to California next week for New Year's and to visit Brenn and my adorable "niece" Blake, and that's what we are looking forward to. That and springtime bike rides with Jamison on my new beach cruiser -- his gift to me for Christmas. I AM IN LOVE. With my bike, that is. haha. I cannot wait to ride around the city streets of Sugarhouse.... if only we could transport both of our bikes to California for a cruise down the Strand.... they are "BEACH cruisers" after all! I'll have to put that on my list of "2011 Resolutions/Things to Do" :)
Well, it is Christmas Eve (Day) and there are quite a few things to get done before that jolly old man makes his grand appearance, so I should get going.... I'll be back to update soon enough! Until then, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!! Much love to you all!
So. Now on to more updates: WORK. I've been at the Spine Center for 2 months now, and I'm LOVING it! Surprised? I am. After all my education and experience, and considering that I found my "niche" in Labor & Delivery, I did not expect to find a place for myself in Neurosurgery, working in an office M-F, 8-6. But the job description matches my personality quite perfectly, and I feel that I have been able to contribute a great deal to the development of the Spine Center concept. Currently, my main priority is to compile data and reports for the end of the month so that we can see where we need to focus our attention in January. I've done quite a bit of patient triage and screening (my eventual central role at the clinic) in order to decrease the backlog of patients for the surgeons, but in order to get our system up-and-running come January, I've had to do a lot of data entry. It's tedious work, but thankfully I have a great support system at the clinic and I love going to work each day. I'll be grateful when all this prep work is completed, but we still have 3 more days at the clinic until the end of the month (and YEAR) so I just need to keep pushing forward. I do see a light at the end of the tunnel, though... and that is what is keeping me motivated. I am confident that my efforts will greatly improve the clinic's current practice, and I feel grateful to be a part of this new system!
HOLIDAYS. Hard to believe that they are almost over... I always say that, but for some reason I've been more aware of it this year. It feels like yesterday that I was celebrating Thanksgiving, and now here we are, getting the house ready for Santa to arrive... I love this time of year. Especially in the shadows of the snow-capped Utah mountains, and especially with family and friends. Last weekend I had the opportunity to travel to Idaho Falls with Jamison to meet his family (he is the youngest of 8 children) during their Christmas festivities. I was slightly anxious about the whole situation (not sure how a Californian would fit in to an Idahoan family, especially because each of his siblings is married with children) but they welcomed me without any second thoughts and all my worries quickly disappeared. I had such an enjoyable time -- brought me back to my childhood years and our epic Newman Reunions -- being one of 36 first-cousins was overwhelming, but I absolutely loved it. So celebrating with his family was a pleasant surprise, and I couldn't have asked for anything more. Is it too much to say that I love his family? Shoot. I do. They are amazing, and I thank them for such a great "first" IF/Manwaring experience! I know what some of you Utahns may be thinking -- but NO, we are not engaged, and I don't see that happening any time soon. Yes, we've been dating 3 months now, but we are perfectly content with our relationship and we don't feel the need to rush into any major decisions right now! We are taking a road trip to California next week for New Year's and to visit Brenn and my adorable "niece" Blake, and that's what we are looking forward to. That and springtime bike rides with Jamison on my new beach cruiser -- his gift to me for Christmas. I AM IN LOVE. With my bike, that is. haha. I cannot wait to ride around the city streets of Sugarhouse.... if only we could transport both of our bikes to California for a cruise down the Strand.... they are "BEACH cruisers" after all! I'll have to put that on my list of "2011 Resolutions/Things to Do" :)
Well, it is Christmas Eve (Day) and there are quite a few things to get done before that jolly old man makes his grand appearance, so I should get going.... I'll be back to update soon enough! Until then, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!! Much love to you all!
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